You have either decided on your primary skillset or it has decided on you. This has already happened.
In saying “I want to”, you own the choice. You own the foresight, the labor, the accomplishment, the credit, the admiration, and the prosperity.
How would you respond to this hypothetical scenario?
There was never a moment when your machinations were slated to extend in significance beyond the end of your life.
Just as the bear who ate the poison berries will suffer the consequence regardless of how they smelled and looked and tasted, you must do the same for what you do.
It’s amazing the difference between saying, “I do X because I believe it is right,” and “I do X because it is right.”
There are no values without a valuer. There are no intrinsic values. Chime in on this?
Survival is a war of attrition.